a new day

inspired continuously by fellow writers, to continue my blog. i am definitely a novice, but enjoy writing nonetheless.
i had an interesting conversation with a student who used to be scared of me. i am glad that she stuck around and i didn't run her off... i think the longer i teach, the more confident i become with this practice. i actually love my students, they become the beloved. i wish i could allow this to spill over into all of my thought and feelings, interactions in life. to be right in the moment, to be adequate and enough. not to be, because i am, but to really believe it and embrace it. the quality of purnam, being included in all that is whole and complete and perfect and enough. i know my teaching style is either love it or hate it. there will either be a drawing towards it or a strong aversion, this style comes from teachers i have studied with so their influence cannot be denied. it is important to recognize that it is unnecessary to like a teacher, but can you obtain the necessary knowledge from them about yourself. it is the teacher's job to give you information, and the student's job to assimilate. don't get caught up in like or dislike. it is irrelevant. a student told me she liked me last night, and i told her that was good i like her too, but it makes no difference really. i will still teach someone even if i don't like them and i have begin to think less and less in those terms. like and dislike- just brain discriminating and categorizing, departmentalizing. is the information correct, does it help me? these are the important questions, as you will receive information even if you don't like it. liking a teacher can also be distracting. i know i need to be around my teachers and guru, but to be around them too much can be distracting. some teachers, i would hang out with, and others i wouldn't even dream of it. i need to find my own way, that's nothing anyone else can give me. at my teacher, ramanand's advice, i am insisting on being happy and that is not determined by my likes and dislikes. sometimes, it still is from an external standpoint, but yoga teaches us to be steadfast in wisdom, eqinimity- evenness of mind no matter what the circumstances, like tadasana- a big strong mountain, steady and unmoving, unshakable with a beautiful shimmering lake below reflecting our existence and shimmering consciousness.